Did you get my message?
I didn’t hear a word you said.
Did you get my message?
I’m not gonna believe your lies anymore!
Did you get my message that I want to reconnect with you?
Did you get my message, I can hear you say your coming but I don’t hear.
Why did you get the message love?
That I want to get back with you.
Did you get my message love?
That I want to reconnect with you. Why did you get the message love? Did you get my message that I want to reconnect with you.
July 2010
Did you get my message, the one I left, while I was trying to condense everything that I meant. In a minute or less when I called to confess, and make all of my stresses go bye-bye.
we are amazed in the light of the stars.
when we arrive at eternitys shore, where death is just a memory and tears are no more. we’ll enter in as the wedding bells ring, your bride will come together and we’ll sing you’re beautiful!
this week i learned that i have to stop being selfish and work on being more selfless. God wants to use me through him. i need to be willing and have open eyes and a more open heart.
after dark
Staying up late is fun and all, but when that morning light begins peering through your window and you are still fighting sleep, fun becomes an absent word. Going through that struggle for a week is something I never want to have to experience again. Too much time to think, to wonder, imagine, fantasize, think, think. Letting your mind run wild. No one should ever have to think that much. The thoughts going through your head are..and then your trail off. I love sleeping, which is what I will do, now.
rage
my best friend would not dare say that. its incredible how alone one can feel.
3am
just looked at the clock. my oh my its late. dont know how that happened. so the past week has been one big blurrrr. its all felt like one long long day. i went from being happy and content, to miserable and desperate. i never ever want to relive that experience ever again. mtv music videos. loveee em. when im with you i get lost. caught up, in your charm. and i absolutely love it. i forget the world. call me crazy. its late. 3 icys. thats whats keeping me up right now. remember those 8 pounds i lost? they’re baaaacckk! which is a good thing. im not sure if they’re actually back. hopefully though. i want to go out. i hate being trapped inside these walls for extended periods of time. i love being out. until tomorrow, <3
I’ve been waiting for a call that isn’t coming. Don’t tell me you’re going to call, if you’re not going to.
Let's make this last forever
Despite the fact that I have 4 holes in my mouth and I’m experiencing a little discomfort ie. Can’t feel the right side of my face, yet. Non stop bleeding. And some other small things. I’m still happy as can be! Eating ice cream all day has been super fun and my mom made me delicious mashed potatoes. My grandma brought me beautiful flowers. And my other grandma bought me a leopard bag that I’m in love with! My best friend is on her way over with jamba juice for me then she is going to stay and watch an episode of wipeout with yours truly. My mom watched a scary movie with me also. And it’s been pouring!! I’d love to see my boyfriend but he’s with our church at the mission trip!! Which is pretty awesome. And I’ll see his smiling face when he returns. At this point in my life there is not a thing that I want or need. I am so perfectly content. With my friends, family, youth group, and Jesus by my side nothing can bring me down. I’m just a 16 year old girl in love with life. My birthday however is in 4 months!! Pain pills kicking in! Nightttty night
